"I’ve done so many things the wrong way. I don’t want to make you one of those things."  –June 1
"You’re a good man that I should probably marry you."  –July 17
"I regret a lot of things from the past."  –Aug 2

Those were your own words.  I was surprised to hear those things when you were in China.  I was very happy.  But it seems like the China Riley is different from the Riley now.
I don’t know what happened to you or what I even did to deserve to be ignored by you.  Out of nowhere you just delete me out of your life.  I tried texting, calling and emailing.  All ignored.  If you don’t want to speak with me then just say so.  Don’t just automatically disappear.  I was so worried that something happened to you.  I was about to call campus security to check up on you.  But I know you just don’t want to talk to me since you logged off msn once I messaged you.
Anyways, I’m not going to fuss about it.  I know there’s nothing I did wrong to deserve this from you.  All this time I’ve been your friend and truly cared about you.  And if you want to end it like this then it’s up to you.

I hope you have a good life.  Good luck in your studies.  Hope you find someone that you can truly love and show feelings for.

Thank you for teaching me a great lesson….

And her reply:

It’s not you. It’s ME

Sarah’s response:
“Yea you are right. Send her that email. Seems like she wouldn’t read it anyways. She did it to you like 3 times so like baseball, she out! Well let me know what happens. I know you like and care for her a lot but it’s a dead end street. Same stuff keeps happening.”

Eric’s response:
“You did what you could, and that’s all there is too it.  I think where the disconnect is is that she’s just a girl.  You’re ready for a woman.  That’s not this chick.  I think she’s young, stupid, and immature, but you knew that this is what I thought about her anyways.  You have too many stresses in your life and a companion should not be one of them.  You did everything right and this is the thanks that you get for all that effort.  It’s a load of crap if you ask me that she did this to you and that she did this for a long time.  And you’re right, you didn’t do anything to deserve this kind of treatment from her, or anyone for that matter.  You’re a good dude and if she can’t see that or if she was taking advantage of that, then she’s not worth your time or efforts.  So she’s walked out of your life, let’s hope that she never comes back.  You don’t need this crap from someone like her. “

I don’t believe in love anymore.  I once was love’s biggest fan.  I loved love.  I believed in love at first sight, true love, soul mate, all that mushy-gushy stuff the best songs and books are written about.  One day my princess will come….blah blah blah.  I used to believe in love.  I was in love, like I’m talking head over heals, stars in your eyes in L-O-V-E.  I loved you with all my heart even though I knew you weren’t perfect.  We always had our disagreements but against the odds we made it through.  Then all of a sudden you disappeared.  You deleted me from your life with no reason at all.  Had it all been a lie.  A lie?  All this time?  What should I be more upset about my broken dreams and broken heart, or the fact that I fell for it all?  Only fools fall in love, and love played me like a fiddle.  So I don’t believe in love anymore.  Because if you don’t believe in love there is nothing to cry about, and I don’t have anymore tears to cry.  So I gave up on love because it gave up on me.

Like the lyrics says…"So bring on the pain, let it kill your memory" 

Well at least the good thing is that my heart can’t be broken.  It’s in so many pieces already that I can’t even find a big enough piece to break.